“Writers must have hides of Kevlar.”
Jerry Jay Carroll
I have pondered whether or not I should write this post. But honestly, I feel I owe you all an answer after posting my intention to try to publish Faces of ALI.
So here’s where I get brutally honest.
I encountered the word “no.” It was presented strongly, multiple times, by a person teaching a class. She has legitimate authority as a published author, she’s famous, she’s friends with important people, etc.
I was told anthologies are of no interest to publishers. I was told this in front of many bloggers and influential people. It was pretty much my worst nightmare, come to life. I have always been so afraid of rejection.
The thing is, I don’t care about becoming a famous author. (And I was told that this book would do nothing to establish me as a “name.” NOT MY POINT!!) I don’t care about making money. I would lose money to spread these stories. I don’t care if I don’t get on The Today Show.
I just want to educate people about infertility, loss and adoption. WHY IS THIS SO VERY HARD TO DO?!?
I learned a lot more about news cycles and why mainstream publications write the pieces they do.
I don’t drink martinis and I’m not a stand-up comedian. I’m terrible at packaging an idea into a snappy elevator pitch. Apparently, that’s what the mainstream media and publishing world want.
Mostly, I just feel bad that I’m letting you all down. I’d gotten so much feedback that Faces of ALI was working. And maybe it has. Maybe it will. Maybe someone else will come out with a great idea that will pierce the silence. Feel free to try! Is anyone a stand-up comedienne? Here’s your chance!
I’ll keep trying. Should I keep trying? I really, really care about this. After all of the negative press about self-publishing, it looks like maybe it’s the best option?
I’m really sorry I don’t have better news.