The One Where I Talk About Nothing Uplifting

Yeah. Sorry in advance. I don’t really have any funny anecdotes or semi-clever metaphors or beefs with the New York Times or hopeful quotes or songs. I wish I did.

This week has been: well, I think I can safely say that it’s the hardest week I’ve ever had as a mother. Darcy went out of town on his birthday, Sunday, leaving me with two sick kids not allowed to go to pre-school. Sometimes motherhood feels like a never-ending endurance test, like a marathon of Amazing Race episodes without travel.

This week I’ve dealt with:
– Two sick, cranky three year olds from 7:00 AM – 11:00 PM by myself, complete with tantrums, doctor appointments, refusals to sleep, coughing, high temperatures, trying to get them to drink and eat and get well. The worrying, the exhaustion, the frustration has been intense.
– A gang of raucous raccoons tearing up our lawn, kicking and chewing our soccer ball and ripping apart our goal at 3 AM. Apparently they HATE soccer. Twice they did this, waking me up and completing their ruckus by running across our roof, freaking me out. WTF?
– My son vomiting all over the twins’ bedroom. Poor little guy 😦
– The topper: my daughter about an hour ago choked on a pita chip and started turning bright purple. She could not speak or cough. I had to give her the Heimlich maneuver twice, before the second attempt finally forced the chip out of her windpipe. She’s OK, Thank God. It was super scary. Poor little girl 😦
– I’m not quite over the pneumonia, and am weak and dampened.

I feel so scared and tired and incompetent.

And I don’t want to complain because I know how lucky I am.

So this tweet, this is what I’m clinging to:

Soccer Ball damage. Freakin’ raccoons.

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13 responses to “The One Where I Talk About Nothing Uplifting

  1. Keep on keepin’ on mamma.. yes it is hard- I don’t have any words to minimize that at all. Sending you strength across the miles though…
    THANK GOODNESS your daughter is alright.. poor girl! I hope the kids all feel better soon (you as well!).
    Your raccoons are freaking INSANE! WTF!?
    And the tweet made me feel bad for getting upset with my 6 year old today.. thank you for the perspective.

  2. Wordgirl

    That sounds just awful — I know the late night — can’t sleep anxiety over sick kids — and the sleeplessness — and doing it alone…I am so sorry … but you are not alone — and you are not incompetent!!! Motherhood is hard hard work. It is exhausting making certain these tiny creatures stay safe. And the food thing — UGH! I am a total choking-phobe — so that right there just reduced me to a quivering mess.

    Raccoons? Well, on the plus side they aren’t IN the house — I always think of a terrific and powerful essay that began with squirrels being trapped in the attic of a house…

    XO

    P

  3. Esperanza

    Oh girl, what a wicked, wicked week. And what a wonderful quote to cling to. Thanks for sharing that.

    I hope Darcy gets home and you can get some much needed R&R!

    Love you!

  4. Oh lady, I’m so sorry you’ve had such an awful week! And I’m so glad your girl is okay, I can’t even imagine how scary that must have been. And seriously, what is with those raccoons? That is INSANE.

    I’m sending you love!
    xoxox

  5. That’s a lot to deal with on your own. Kudos to you. How scary with your little girl, and that you took the right action right there shows just how competent you are! Hope everyone gets better soon.
    But what with the raccoons? How rude of them!

  6. I’m sorry this week has been so awful … sending love and light to you!!

  7. Lut C.

    Incompetent? You saved your daughters life! I think you can let yourself off your own hook there for a good while.

    Taking care of sick kids is hard work. Hang in there!

  8. OMG! Sending hugs your way! I hope you have some IRL friends or relatives who can help you (where do you live? I think not near me).

  9. With each of your dealings, I thought, “Oh, NO! That’s awful!” And each one got a more intense reaction.

    That last one must have been particularly harrowing. I’m so glad all turned out well.

    Well maybe not for the soccer ball.

  10. Oh, what an awful week, crowned with the scariest of experiences! Major kudos to you for performing the Heimlich maneuver… twice. Having multiple sick kiddos will force any otherwise sane, competent supermom to her knees. Throw insane raccoons and a serious choking incident on top of that, and I’m not sure anyone else could’ve gotten through the week the way you did. I’m a mom to lalmost 2-year old triplets who are currently sick and teething, and I can’t imagine handling anything else right now. (Please, universe, that’s not an invitation to test me!) I hope you get some relief with Darcy returning soon, and that you have other “reinforcements” to call upon. May the week ahead be smooth sailing.

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